Laying down my pride.

PRIDE.

 Pride is a sneaky little thing. So sneaky I didn’t realize I had so much pride until God started opening my heart to see it. It hurts I never wanted to be pride filled, but I am so thankful that God has been showing me so that I can give my pride up to Him. He can come in and fill the now empty areas of my heart and I am full of much more life because of it!

I thought pride couldn’t hurt me physically, but I was wrong.

I got hurt at work, fairly bad. I began hurting in November of 2012. I told myself everyone else is hurting too, you can stick it out Katlin there are only a few months left in this costume. Then it got to the point where all of us girls were counting down the weeks 6 weeks, 5 weeks, 4 weeks..and so on. Girls started to drop out left and right. I kept telling myself you can do it, just finish out the time and you’ll be fine. The guests need you there aren’t enough left to fully staff, the company needs you they can’t fill shifts. Part of this was just having a strong work ethic, but the other part was pride. I didn’t want to have to admit that a pair of FAIRY wings had hurt me.

 I mean really FAIRY WINGS.

But they did hurt me and I was getting worse and worse every day. It got to the point where I couldn’t hug the guests, I could BARLEY sign an autograph, I could just stand on set in near tears because of the pain. At home I couldn’t lift a tee-shirt, I fell over multiple times getting dressed because the pain/numbness was so great I would collapse on the ground(now I know where they get the  saying pride comes before a fall). But I wouldn’t admit that I could not work anymore, or function outside of work either. Then finally January 21^st (yes, I started hurting in November I was stupid) I said enough I can’t do this anymore with tears in my eyes I went to the Doctor on site. I’m still recovering to this day from that injury, which probably wouldn’t have been as bad if I had not been so prideful and refused to admit I needed help. When people ask what happened I have to lay my pride down each time and tell them a pair of fairy wings broke my back. I’m beginning to get to the point where I can laugh at myself and how foolish I was.

The best part about all this is GOD. God has been so good and faithful the entire time. He was gentle about revealing my heart to me. He has been showing me where I need to give more to Him; never forcing me to do anything but guiding me, showing me the way, leading me into a relationship much deeper with him. 

What does this have to do with missions?

Part of the journey was to leave Disney and become a full time missionary.

SCARY.

A full time missionary.

I’ve had a job since I was 12. I love to work. It’s a struggle with pride. I like to be able to pay for myself, not have to ask others for money.

Surprise Katlin! Full time missionaries don’t get paychecks.

 I have to ask friends, colleges, family for support. I am having to lay down my pride and ask for support. Not an easy thing for me, but once again God has been gracious with me. I cannot express how thankful I am to my heavenly Father and how he just wants the best for me!

Right now I have 20/860$ monthly support needed.

I have to lay down my pride and ask you for help and support.  5, 10, 20 dollars any amount will help!

If 42 people commit 21 dollars or if 80 people commit 11 dollars I will reach my goal. Nothing is too small; you will be blessed for helping HIS kingdom.

You all are my friends and family I want to keep you up to date on what is going on in my heart and what God is doing; Also because I need people who will partner with me on this journey. I need people will who commit to praying for me and the work I will be doing with YWAM. I need people who will financially support me. I have to lay down my pride and admit that I cannot do this without you. I know that God will provide, I am trusting that he will provide. If you partner with me through prayers or through monthly support it will be a huge blessing to me! I believe that those who would like to partner with me in anyway will be blessed as well! Without your support I would not be able to go. If you would like to commit to a monthly gift or a onetime donation you may do so here:

World Outreach Ministries

The fastest way is to make an Online Donation-- and select Katlin Gillott from the list. The system can process USA & International cards. You can also set up automatic monthly Gifts with your credit card if you choose the "Monthly" option. Or simply mail your check to: World Outreach Ministries, PO Box B, Marietta, GA 30061 and designate for Katlin Gillott #244.

All donations are tax deductible also :)

 

I pray that everyone has a great day!

My visa is still pending, after that gets approved I will buy my ticket to Australia. If you could please pray for a decent priced ticket, and that my visa will get approved soon I would be very thankful.

 

Love,

Katlin N Gillott