I LOVE JESUS.

Lordship and Fear of the Lord.

That was our topic this week. What does it really mean to have Jesus as Lord of our lives? Do we even have him as Lord of our life? So often we turn to comforts as an easy way out when things get hard we turn to idols. It challenged me to think of what I really hold closest to me, is Jesus really Lord of my whole life? During a 14 hour ministry day on Friday I can say: Yes, Jesus is Lord over my life! I have given him everything, my future, my family, my friends, my stuff, my future family, my life. I laid them all down to Him I gave him everything. I totally and completely recognized that he is Lord. Don't get me wrong he has always been Lord over my life, I just hadn't given him EVERYTHING, part of me gave Him my life, my future etc, but part of me was still thinking "No, I can do this better." It was a lack of trust in Him. A lack of trust in the great I AM, the Alpha and the Omega, Creator of this world. How stupid of me, to think that I would know better then my God who created me. It hurt to know that I hadn't given Him my all and my best, thank goodness for His grace. I am completely open to how God wants to use me, I trust Him and the plans that He has for me. In all this I knew I needed to make a commitment. SCARY but I had to I needed to. I needed to trust God. Since I got here I knew I was meant to stay here longer then just 2 schools, but I never made hard core dates I just said oh yea I'll stay longer. Now I have committed to 2 years at YWAM Byron Bay. The peace that came with that! Being obedient to God and what He has been saying to me the last 3 months. Committing to building community here in Byron and community with the greater YWAM bases. Committing to seeking ways to walk out a calling I have in my life. I committed to God, and committed to the people here. The truth is I don't know when I will see my family again, or friends, or even be back home. My eyes are on Jesus though and when my eyes are set on him all the worries fade away. They don't disappear but I know that Jesus will get me through ANYTHING as long as I keep him the center of my life. I still don't know what the next 2 years will hold for me. I am still praying about what school to staff next, learning how to be a disciple and disciple people at the same time, getting ready for out reach, and learning how to live life in community. It is by no means a cake-walk and easy all the time but I can always run to Jesus and He will get me though it all.